Mar. 22nd, 2003 12:21 am:
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I have so many things on my mind.  Things that I want to say.  However, I must keep my audience in mind and unfortunately not all of you are ready to hear what I have to say.

First off, I've been keeping a secret from all of my friends for awhile now.  This week I decided to start telling people.  Most of them took it pretty well, not all, but most.  Perhaps someday I will blog elaborating on this, but for now, if I have told you, then you know exactly what I am talking about.

Secondly, I have a friend of mine whom I'm having trouble forming an opinion of.  She is very complex, intriguingly so.  Normally, I would not worry about being able to put my opinion into words.  Except, that she keeps asking me what my opinion of her is and I think that I am hurting her when I am unable to answer. 

You see, she is very blunt.  Sometimes brutally so.  Sometimes, when she tells me things that I don't want to hear, I make an excuse to disregard them by calling her cold, or other similar labels.  But she isn't. 

I do think highly of her.  Indeed, I consider her to be my best friend.  Surely this is evident by the fact that I enjoy spending so much time with her.  I don't know, maybe I am making a bigger deal out of it than it needs to be.  Either way, I still feel that I need to give her a definitive answer.  One that I have been unable to give thus far.

Lastly, I refuse to speak about the war.  If you know me, you know my opinions of it.

The other things on my mind are somewhat trivial and will be resolved by the end of the weekend, so I am not worrying too much about those.

Our lives improve only when we take chances - and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves.
-Walter Anderson

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