March 3rd, 2003

[Trasnscribed from Xanga]

This entry is a public apology to Nÿdia. I did not take the opportunity that she gave me at lunch to apologize to her and I am regretting it, so now I am apologizing here because I do not think that she will give me another chance. Perhaps by some stroke of luck she will stumble across this and believe the sincerity of my words

Nÿdia, I said some awful things to you, things that I cannot take back, though I wish I could. However, what I said was my opinion, and still is. I will not apologize for that. Though I do apologize for telling you my opinion with the intent to hurt you. I could have just as easily kept my opinion to myself and not have caused you the pain that I did. But I did... and for that I am sorry.

As to today at lunch, I became defensive when I should not have. I felt overwhelmed by the large group of friends that you had around you when you called me over. What was said there was a show in attempt to save face, nothing more.
I do not expect you to forgive me, for I cannot even forgive myself.

Try what repentance can:
What can it not?
Yet what can it when one cannot repent?
O wretched state! O bosom black as death!

-William Shakespeare, Hamlet Prince of Denmark (Claudius, King of Denmark at III, iii)

He comes never late who comes repentant.
-Juan de Horozco, Manasses, Rey de India (Jorn, III)

O ye powers that search
The heart of man, and weigh his inmost thoughts,
If I have done amiss, impute it not!
The best may err, but you are good.

-Joseph Addison, Cato (act V, sc. 4)

(Note: There are 3 quotes instead of the usual 1. This is done for emphasis.)

1 Comment

It takes a strong man to appologize. I hope she sees how much she means to you. I know I do. >hugs<
Posted 3/5/2003 2:24 PM by SexyStephie